This was actually my entry to Chronicles of a Nursing Mom contest, I collage my photos because this is where my embarrassing story is all about.
I breastfeed everywhere! No problem when we're at home but the challenge always starts when we have to go out...
I don't shy away in breastfeeding my newborn. I'm actually proud of it, and I wanna be a good example for moms and future moms out there that you could still look fab and decent even when breastfeeding in the public. lol Nothing to be ashamed of! Yet I learned that Nothing to be ashamed of! means you have to breastfeed your babe with helpers that won't fail you.
By helpers, i refer to nursing bras, cover ups and the likes.
On my photo, I didn't wear a nursing bra (actually, i don't have a nursing bra yet) and i don't have a decent cover up. It's my babe's first monthly check up and its windy outside. Since we're in a public/crowded place (pedia's clinic inside the mall) I had a hard time! Balancing him out inside my not so steady cover up especially while walking! its awkward to maintain my position, leveling his head on my breast while making sure his nose aren't covered and my boob is not exposed (personally, that's the decent part of breastfeeding publicly, NO EXPOSURE) all at the same time. And as I mentioned, its windy, so the cover up (idk the proper term) always gets out of the place, exposing everything!
I decided to use a cloth-pin and oh yes its still quite embarrassing! But at least I wont worry about the thing flying around. Some would comment, nice thinking! Smiling back at them, I know deep inside how weird-looking I am and as I'm more self-conscious than ever, no, i don't take their side unsolicited comments as compliments, its more like mocking to me.
Gah! But I just think/remind to myself, who cares? Me? I must not focus on me, I realized that I should continue nursing my babe and give his needs (breastmilk) anytime anywhere he wants it, because no one but me can give his needs.
I smile whenever I remember how he love my embrace. And how hypnotic my breastfeeding to him. I think he feels secured when he could feel my bosom and smell my mommy-ness. hee hee